It is truly miraculous that when you allow yourself to listen to your inner wisdom, speak your truth, and open to receive, amazing grace unfolds.
The following case studies describe actual client sessions and the results achieved through the various techniques used in the healing process. *The names have been changed and some details intentionally omitted or altered to protect the confidentiality of clients. The results are unchanged.
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Case Study: Letting Go of the Rigid Mind & Making Room to Feel
Jordan had difficulty saying ‘no’. He often honoured his value of being helpful to others, however it could come with a cost when he was automatically triggered to say ‘yes’. We discerned that he then set about assessing the situation and trying to understand what was being asked of him, and why and how to meet those expectations, but, unfortunately, this discernment came after he made the agreement. His inner struggle was manifesting as pain in his body, which became more apparent as we brought these pieces to his awareness.
There was no doubt that this was a learned behavior from his childhood. He was told what to do and how to be, rewarded for abiding by what was being asked of him, and punished if he didn’t. Saying ‘no’ to the authority figures in his life had not been an option. It was very understandable then as to why he often felt manipulated. This alone created the pattern of setting aside his own needs, desires and feelings.
However, we cleared another earlier influence that made standing in his power that much more difficult. We traced it to experiences in the Chinese military, which was a very rigid, patriarchal energy. Any disagreement or resistance to orders was met with corporal punishment. Without question, we were observing the Spirit of Fear and Spirit of Control that had also imprinted a lot of self-control. Jordan did indeed feel the presence of those manipulating dark forces. He had been mired in it. So saying that he often felt manipulated in this timeline, was actually quite accurate, and important for him to acknowledge.
As soon as I suggested to Jordan that he start claiming back his power, his body started to release all the contraction and his self-control, and moved into relaxation. We were guided to clear his fears of abuse of power, fears of change and punishment, and fear of failure. From that timeline he was still a carrying a perception that he did not have choice, and this had created karmic imbalances throughout his current life. We cleared ancestral influences from the 8th dimensional stargate (China/Tibet), as well as zodiac influences that created a tendency to analyze and think. Since this was impacting his power centre, we were also guided to re-imprint the harmonics through his 3rd dimensional body.
The core of this healing was releasing the very old illusion that he could not say ‘no’ and to reclaim his rightful place: to deactivate the automatic trigger by taking a moment before saying ‘yes’ to tune into what he was sensing in his own body, and determine whether what was being asked of him was resonant with what he also wanted or could offer. The questions he had been asking as a way of assessing the situation were wise, but it would be much more balanced if he asked them before saying ‘yes’, and listened to his own heart. He would then change the old learned behaviour of denying himself, and instead cultivate full permission to be himself and respond with conscious choice.
The secondary bonus healing that surfaced in the session was bringing acknowledgement to his naturally empathic self. While this had been overridden by the Spirit of Rigidity for a long time, it was true that he had sensed the dark forces in the previous timeline and now. We clarified that making room for his feelings meant he was claiming back his freedom to be, his openness, as well as his intuition.
Jordan’s integration would require his diligence to stay self-aware, and deepen his relationship with himself by discerning his choices and then learning to assert his choices. This was his right, his power and his new practice!
Case Study: Healing the Pain of Abandonment from Cathar Timelines
Alyssa was experiencing the same energy pattern as she had felt at previous times in her life. She became aware that the same pattern she had experienced in childhood with her mother was also being reflected in her relationships and the workplace. She often felt as though she was unsupported and abandoned and her pain wasn’t being acknowledged, as others always seemed to put their needs above hers. The weight of this was crushing and she would feel that she was not worth loving. This would take her into a sense of powerlessness and resignation.
While the pattern was now fairly clear to her, it was our work to raise her consciousness to the causation for clearing. This came through another timeline in which she was a Cathar in South France (12th Stargate), protecting the Divine Mother principle and her creational codes, much the same way that some Indigos/Starseeds on the planet now are reclaiming the feminine principle on Earth and its balance in Christ consciousness – the Divine Union of the Mother and Father into the sacred, inner balance of the Christ-Sophia.
However, it was at that time in Earth’s history that the Roman Catholic Church, infiltrated by the Draconions/Archons, sought to impose control with agreements and soul bindings, in order to infiltrate the creational codes and set them into reversal. When the Cathars did not comply they were massacred. In that timeline, Alyssa had felt that she had done everything she was supposed to do in her mission, and yet felt abandoned by God. In her final thoughts, the core of her, knowing herself as a Christed being, came into question. In truth, while it was certainly a very painful experience, she had abandoned herself, and she was still abandoning herself when she deemed herself powerless. Feeling abandoned by others was only a reflection of her relationship with herself.
We held witness to the illusion being perpetuated, which was that she was unsupported. Through our guidance it was revealed that she had been supported by benevolent beings at the time, but wasn’t able to see them and was therefore unable to receive their unconditional love. In this lifetime, she would sometimes feel that any support offered to her just didn’t reach her heart.
We could now understand why she held so much fear and felt disconnected from Source. A part of her had fragmented in the other timeline and was unable to integrate. Alyssa was aware of that – a part of her knew not to give up, while another part was terribly tired of feeling this familiar pattern, the enslavement and crucifixion energies put onto humanity. The intention of the negative agenda is to wear down humanity and especially those that hold the Light, in an effort to maintain or create that disconnection. In fact, Alyssa had been targeted.
In session, when Alyssa was supported in her emotional catharsis, she realized that she had been trying to fix things for her wounded inner child and all she needed to do was truly acknowledge her in her pain – to breathe with her and through her pain, with compassion. This what her inner child had been wanting all along. When Alyssa allowed this, she was able to surrender into her deep fear of being alone in the void. But then, with such beautiful grace, she noticed a Light in her core that lifted her up and reminded her of her infinite connection to Source – she now felt stable in her core, joyful, light and energized. We anchored the embodiment of this feeling so that she could call upon it.
Now she was able to acknowledge that while her body had died in that timeline, her form was simply the vessel through which to bring Light. Her inner Source-Light, her God Within, was her support, her only foundation, and eternal. Now she was here again on Earth to shine that Light. Instead of looking externally for her support she was more present to providing that to herself.
As we held all this in witness, through the AoA Hieros Gamos consciousness field, we cleared many aspects including this trauma that had impacted her soul record and personalities, and that of the collective mind and ancestral line, her relationship with her mother, varied emotions and mental body constructs related to feeling alienated, and her energy dynamics with her work colleagues. We collapsed these unsupportive timelines, clearing their impact through all phases of this life and her physical body. We also cleared the victimizer-victim addiction program, targeting programs, and tracking software in her Lightbody that were designed to suppress her evolution of consciousness. Her soul fragments were reclaimed and her Lightbody reintegrated to stability.
Alyssa said that she felt much Lighter and was now excited about what was ahead for her. She was given the tools of effectively connecting to her core and its stability, connecting with the Divine Mother and Father frequencies, and a personalized prayer/affirmation to support her integration, along with Bach Flower remedies.
Case Study – Grieving Losses, and The Power of Trusting Your Higher Self.
Amber sought my support because she was feeling depressed and also experiencing anxiety for which she didn’t know the cause. As we explored her history it came to light that Amber had suffered many losses in her life. Recently she had suffered several but as she focused her awareness on them she realized that she was also connecting with losses in her life from long ago. This often happens if we have not processed our feelings at the time of a loss; something painful that happens in current day triggers painful feelings from the past. Unresolved grief can be all consuming, occupying the energy field with heavy vibrations and leaving little space for joy and love. For Amber, it resulted in a disconnection from her inner life, which branched into the related heart chakra issues of always taking care of others and abandoning herself. She very much wanted to bypass this difficulty by finding a solution; she felt if she focused on her work it would address the problem. While clarifying her goals and purpose in work were valid, I encouraged her to persevere with honouring her feelings and processing her losses, despite the challenge of it. In one session when Amber acknowledged her Spirit, she literally felt her heart flutter in an energy opening. Her Spirit called her to trust its guidance. She had begun to reconnect with her Higher Self. Through journaling, theta healing, and allowing herself to feel her emotions Amber was able to learn to listen to her body’s wisdom, place more emphasis on self-nurturing, clarify her boundaries for giving and receiving love, and lift her energy frequency. She was able to let go of aspects of her life that were no longer serving her and bring more peace to herself. It was heart-warming to eventually see Amber arrive at session with a smile on her face and hear her laughing.
Case Study – Redefining Trust During Loss
Carmela faced some profound questions about her life. Her job provided her with a sense of security and the comforts of life that she had worked diligently to bring into her life. But suddenly, Carmela lost her job. And with that job loss, came the loss of her sense of stability about her finances, her retirement, her circle of support and her expectations. She was afraid of returning to struggle. Our healing work together was to help find a deeper stability within herself.
Carmela grew up with very little money in a household that was wrought with the instability of two parents who were unprepared for the responsibilities of raising a family. From a very early age she felt she had only herself to rely upon and she became the parent in the family. As a healing facilitator, I witness this as a fairly common situation, especially for Indigos/Starseeds. She very much had to trust her inner self. This seemed then that she would have anchored a strong trust with her Higher Self in this timeline. However, her attempts to anchor this trust went astray; when she tried to support herself and her parents and bring some semblance of stability into the home, her parents couldn’t see past their own shame and rebuked her. As a result, her trust was never validated, she doubted her own wisdom, and she felt it unfair that she had to struggle so much. She decided that she must not be valuable enough to her parents, to God or to anyone to receive more support and guidance in her life. This subconscious, core perception of herself that she was not valuable kept her looking outside of herself for validation, and blocked her from seeing the gift of her Self that was she knew to call upon during her childhood. I shared with her that, more often than not, I am working with people who have never anchored any sense of their Higher Self.
The key to her healing in this session began with simply acknowledging and feeling the very old sadness and anger she had been resisting, and most importantly, the anger at herself for having compromised her own value. The moment we began to do this, it became clear to me in my inner vision that the foundation of her spiritual house had now taken root, and was returning to her the life force that was her birthright. Carmela released deep pain in her heart, and felt the pressure that she had been imposing on herself lift; she had found a stronger, more stable and constant support in her own God-Self.
Case Study – Resolving Polarities: the ‘good girl’ and ‘bad girl’
Jordan wanted to heal her pattern of not giving herself permission to own her gifts and live her life with confidence. Her “good girl” persona was first brought to consciousness; a common persona that becomes deeply ingrained by children when they receive much approval from parents for doing the right things, sacrificing their needs and pleasing others. Such was the case for Jordan, and through just one healing session she started to become much more aware of how she continually put others first. This included focusing on their feelings and being careful not to hurt them. This was a strategy to avoid feeling her own negative feelings, and it was also providing her with only conditional love.
A second exploration deepened the awareness that beneath this polarity of ‘being good’ was the self-judgment of ‘being bad’. These ‘negative’ aspects of her and her ‘negative’ feelings were the parts of her that she felt took care of her and helped her stand up for herself when the ‘good girl’ didn’t. So it followed that, in her inner child’s reasoning, taking care of herself was bad. She would seldom engage these aspects to put herself first. Now it would be easier to more fully release the need for the ‘good girl’ since these polarities were being held in place together, each depending on the other.
To give herself unconditional love and transform her shadow from unacceptable to acceptable, we clarified that within each ‘negative’ quality there is a clue to the positive. For example, her aggressiveness showed up when her ‘good girl’ was emotionally hurt. Yet, it was beneficial in the sense that it informed her that her boundaries had been violated. However, if she simply kept things as is, she would keep going back and forth between the “good girl’ and the ‘bad girl’. So we pointed out that being aggressive was, in fact, power over others not authentic power. Instead, rather than be aggressive, she could own her hurt and express it with the intention of resolving her painful feelings and loving herself first. In doing so, she was learning to command her space and operate from neutrality not polarity thinking.
Case Study – Insomnia, Resisting Multi-dimensionality, Fear of Aliens
Holly had been experiencing insomnia for 4.5 years and couldn’t resolve it despite trying many methods – until we connected a few puzzle pieces. I was guided that she was restless because she was not living on purpose. While she felt that she was, she was still open to the exploration. Our session together revealed that she wasn’t choosing her ‘full life’ as she termed it. She was ‘fence-sitting’ because she was afraid that if she did embrace her whole Self, she would become separated from what she didn’t have in childhood but had now – family. She would end up alone, which is a common core fear the ego holds. This was a similar choice she had to make in a previous timeline. Now, in her mind, to have to choose life and lose family again was to repeat a painful pattern.
Therefore, because of this fear, she continued to participate in her ineffective current family dynamics; she deemed herself not enough and continued to deny her own values, power, and needs. This seemed to keep things balanced without disrupting what she enjoyed. In truth, the healing here wasn’t to just bring Light to her shadow and help her get off the fence, but to help her choose to make a commitment to her infinite wholeness and see that there is no fence; a rather profound shift in self-perception.
Accepting her multi-dimensionality held another aspect. As she moved forward in her career, she shut down her psychic knowing and was now again facing her fears about that. As a child, she saw aliens/extra-dimensional beings and was reluctant to do so again. Now, she felt that she didn’t have time for this and her family. We helped her to see that dark beings from other dimensions were only one part of her multi-dimensional experience, but this was keeping her from owning the fullness of her multi-dimensional self. Once this came to consciousness she felt herself shift from resistance in her body to acceptance.
She also realized that she was operating from linear time, and her hypothyroidism, making her feel fatigued, was actually trying to slow her down. But this insight as to how she was avoiding her multi-dimensional awareness helped shift her perceived limitation, and she immediately felt the muscles around her thyroid starting to relax.
After one night of integration, Holly slept well and has continued to sleep peacefully.
Case Study – The Paradox of Resisting and Protecting the Spiritual Self
Roxanne was aware that she was in strong resistance to sustaining herself in her inner core Spirit. There was a conflict within her: she wanted to live more aligned in her truth but she would find herself alternating between attending to her Spirit and distracting herself with hollow pursuits. This continued for quite a long time and she was unable to get to the root of this stubborn pattern by herself.
Most people protect a wounded aspect of themselves and we discerned that Roxanne was protecting her God-self, which was set aside when it was dishonoured as a child. There was no nurturing of this spacious self who wanted to live at her own pace, connect with nature, and flow. Her parents were always anxious and always seemed to hurry her along. Her pace seemed unacceptable. This was emotionally painful, so she adapted by numbing out as a relaxing escape from all the anxiety. And this is what Roxanne continued to do throughout her adulthood as well. She would feel anxious about sinking into her stillness with God and find herself putting off meditation or yoga, though eventually she found her way to it. However, here was the inner conflict: because there was still an unsettledness in her, she would always be seeking time to relax. She actively gave attention to this desire, but unfortunately, her ego still equated relaxing with numbing out as opposed to nurturing her soul. This adaptation was originally created to avoid the pain of having to suppress her God-self and she feared that if she didn’t continue to protect it in this way she would open to it and then have to hide it again.
When we helped Roxanne to see the illusion her energy shifted. We first acknowledged the wounded child that felt the pain of having to numb her God-self. She also now realized that her God-self was her natural and ever-present state. She could reclaim it and give it full permission to lead her in her life – accept herself fully. It was now safe to do so. Her new commitment was to affirm her knowledge that her relaxation and peace was with her God-self, not only in stillness but also when engaged in the activities of her living: her pace of life could be her own and she could flow with Spirit.